I think I may be in love like kinda head over heels..is that bad?

things i want to do...with him...

so i have to get this out. its a list of things that i would like to do with my boyfriend.. some of it may be silly but i still want to try to so these things..

-want to go see the chirstmas light down town
-walk memory grove at night
-have a drunken night
-go get lost somewhere neither one of us know
-have sex some where random
-make cookies
-go to disney land... i know its crazy but i want to
-go on a road trip
-have silly nick names for eachother
-go to summer concerts
-go on lots of hikes
-one day maybe move in together... maybe
-get to know you like you know yourself


more to come when i think about them

realized that

So i realized today that my son turns 1 in 19 days. and to be honest i'm kinda freaking out. sure i'm excited to see him grow up and become a little boy but all at the same time i sit back and think about where did all my time go? I feel like this year has just gone by soo fast and there is nothing i can  do to slow it down. even though i dont want it to slow down because i'm so excited to see what happens but all at the same i want to take my time getting there.
Not only am i excited to see my son grow up but i'm also pretty excited to see what happens with my boyfriend. i'm not in a rush to rush things with him i'm just excited to see what happens. i tend to wonder often how long it will last and everything else like that.. when it comes to thinking about him i feel like i'm a little girl in grade school... but i have not written my name with his.. it seems too childish to do that and wayyy to soon. But i'm still super excited. the hard part is is he wants to travel a lot and i dont have a problem with it i just will miss him lots. i mean i would love to go with him and see the world i just have a son who comes first. But anywho on another note i'm super excited for christmas it should be pretty amazing. :)